Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Stopping the Roller Coasters

The last month or so has been rough for me. Not constantly, 24/7, more like a roller-coaster. Okay days...Good days...Okay days...Bad days...Okay days...etc. I still have not perfected the "mother of two" thing. I still cannot seem to consistently balance teaching, playing, disciplining, learning, cleaning, showering, and cooking in any given day. My life can lately be characterized by being busy, stretched, half-done, discouraging, and downright frustrating due to many different things. And, I have been ready to find the button to stop the roller coasters.

But, God only gives us what we can handle with His help. And I am so thankful for that! Earlier this week, when I was having a {very} rough day, God brought an old hymn to mind that helped me make it through the day. Here are the words, written by H. Peterson...

I just keep trusting my Lord as I walk a long
I just keep trusting my Lord and He gives a song
Though the storm clouds darken the sky o'er the heav'nly trail
I just keep trusting my Lord, He will never fail

He's a faithful friend, such a faithful friend
I can count on Him to the very end
Though the storm clouds darken the sky o'er the heav'nly trail
I just keep trusting my Lord, He will never fail

I just keep trusting my Lord on the narrow way
I just keep trusting my Lord as He leads each day
Though the road is weary at times and I'm sad and blue
I just keep trusting my Lord, He will se me through

He's a faithful guide, such a faithful guide
He is always there walking by my side
Though the road is weary at times and I'm sad and blue
I just keep trusting my Lord, He will se me through

And, if that wasn't enough to keep my focus on Him, and not on the bumps on our roads, He also brought to mind something I had heard recently. I often recall the verse "Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart." It's my life verse, if you will. But until recently, I've always read it to mean that when I delight in Him, He'll give me the desires of my heart.

Lately, through our trials, I'm learning that I should rather read the verse to mean that when I delight in Him, He'll give me the desires of my heart. He will show me what my desires ought to be. When I am walking in Him, our desires...our goals...our needs will be the same! WOW! What an encouragement and challenge to meditate on daily as we strive to be more Christ-like. And, Oh! What perfect timing He had to bring it to my mind. Perhaps it will encourage you, as well...

3 comments:

The Ranew Family said...

Amen, girl. I am praying for you this week and I totally relate to everything you posted. I am in the same position right now. So, I will be lifting you up in prayer to the Lord daily for Him to give you strength in dealing with those bad days and for Him to show you what your desires should be. I ask you to pray the same for me!! Love ya girl!!

Hannah Jo Creations said...

That is exactly what Beth Moore spoke about at the simulcast this weekend! It was WONDERFUL and something I definitely needed to hear! I really needed to evaluate not only my desires but what the heart of my desires are and make sure they are matching up with His will for me! I'll keep you in my prayers if you'll do the same for me.

Ashley Claunch said...

How, I relate. I love your blog and it is so encouraging to hear what other moms who are trying to honor God in all areas go through. Thanks so much for taking the time to share your heart. What an encouragement to be diligent in the middle of tiredness and what feels like failure. "Keeping our eyes fixed on the author and perfecter of our faith"! I also love seeing your photography:)